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[Oct. 6th, 2008|12:23 am] |
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im going to delete this lj and start a new one someday. everything is going to change, my life, my thoughts, my behavior. for the better of me. chao bella |
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[Sep. 16th, 2008|08:05 pm] |
another 2 more weeks and it marks my 1 year crazyversary.sigh. im terribly scared at the moment. i didnt take my medication for a few days now. guess i lost faith in getting better. whats the whole point right. i can picture my life. i cant be on any pressure, stress or whatever crazy situation. i will go haywire and ended up warded. so whats the point on eating those pills. garh.
its been a terrible week despite the hoohaa of assessment ive been going through a lot of emotional breakdown.okay, would you rather tegur your friend for his wrong doing to him or rather talk behind his back?? seriously. i was trying to tell you your mistake so that you dont repeat it again. no, i dont want to be fake nor am i a hypocrite. i guess he didnt take it so yup, i lost a friend. a friend whom i trust and i thought was the one that i can depand on. a friend who is 2nd of priority list. sigh. i was right,im gonna lost him like how i lost the rest of them.
i cant think straight, im worried gonna be alone in this world. i just have a huge feeling im gonna loose taufik sooner or later. like what my mum say someday you gonna live this life alone be it on earth or afterlife.
i hate my brain, i hate it that have an obsessive brain. not that i want to keep thinking and worrying about things. but damn brain keep repeating itself. and people dont understand it. by telling me to stop wont do it. take a gun and shoot my brain, i guess that will work.
im not gonna depand on anyone anymore. family is out of the question, friends? you dont really know their true colours, taufik? his gonna be gone someday. so yup lesson learnt. |
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[Aug. 7th, 2008|09:52 pm] |
okay nobody commented.tssk never mind
anyway its raining pretty badly here in jurong. i was on the way home and it was pouring like ROAR! i was wearing my new shoe. i bought a andkle boots kind of shoe. its black and velvet inside. i was a bit pissed at the rain lah. rain on velvet. tssk. will post a pic later on the shoe or smthg. later |
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[Aug. 7th, 2008|01:18 am] |
seriously! im not angry or anything i just need to know. if you read my lj just leave me a comment. just tell me who you are at least i know
thank you!
with love
ira |
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